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Name: ^pic from backyard^
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Metro: Lancaster
Gender: Female
Interests: Glorifying God and praising his name forever- for no other is worthy. God is awesome. (in the true sense of the word)- He holds my heart- I didn't deserve His love and the ways He has blessed me- and I still don't but all the more I praise Him that He loves me anyways.
Expertise: I am who I am through Jesus Christ- what that is exactly... He's still teaching me... Just taking it as He informs me sometimes by day other times a week... I never know but HEY that's what makes life interesting :)
Occupation: Ministry
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AIM:  meeshell2187
MSN: funnygrape
Member Since:
11/3/2004
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| So it's quite obvious by now that my xanga life is really no longer. In some ways it kills me cuz people actually read stuff here (versus the extremely simple convos that take palce on facebook or myspace... tho I only have the former)
There's a couple reasons why but the main one is simplifying. Networking is as big of a deal to me as the note writing and many of the people I have built friendships with the last years are on facebook so to simplify the time I spend checking up on people and surfing around to those whom I don't get to necessarily see in person has put my leaning towards the fb world.
But just to update the few faithful here...
I am now entering my senior year. This blog holds most of my thoughts throughout the whole experience. All the way back to before I went to school and how God prompted me to get here. It's been a great journey and I am blessed to say that God has been the main factor through-out... with many low points and high points combined, God still receives glory.
Lately I have felt the spirtual attacks of setting out into ministry as an adult. Seems at every corner I am met with a greater challenge and a deeper hurt. But as much as I would like to quit and find a cabin in the wilderness to drown my sorrows away and create a safe haven to just hide away with a few instruments and maybe a journal... God always intervenes and compells me onward into obedience of where He has set my feet and humblingly blessed me when I needed it the most. Reminds me of the Ross King song - "I never thought I'd find You here, way down in my shame and fear, I never thought, You'd draw near to this- my faithlessness, never thought to look for You, in this ditch that I've been crawlin' through, I neve thought You'd listen to the plea - of a non-religious me."
So yeah, it's been interesting and difficult but I still say God is good.
Other much more normal updates are that I am (Lord willing) intending to head up to Alaska for a year term with SEND International upon graduation. My application and references are pending and I hope to hear back from them soon. Training opportunities require me to travel to Michigan in October, January, or March, after which I will need to begin the tedious but blessed process of support raising. So if you have church contacts you would recommend, let me know!
I also started dating this summer. It's quite a long story, but the once again the underscore is simply that God is in control and He does some crazy interventions in our lives. Many of you know I was and have been for a long a adement single individual. This was definitely not in my plan a year ago, but it has been clear that God brought Josh into my life and clear that He has been working in this relationship - so needless to say the change has been even weird for me but I do praise God for it and I look forward to whatever is ahead there as God leads each of us in the ways He has already designed.
My brother is helping me take these entries and put them into printed book form so that I can be at peace with letting this site go... if you want to get a hold of me I'm on facebook, or my e-mail is michelle-at-dramateam-dot-org (hope that makes sense to y'all, keepin' it out of spam scanners.) So don't comment here, but I'd love to keep in touch with everyone!
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| Long time no see... Hey peeps. Well it's been sometime since I was on here. Sadly right now is not a good time to update either, but I will just say that I do intend to return here at summer. Maybe not so much posting content of my own, but I realize there are some good posts that go on here that I do love to interact with and have failed to do so miserably. So yeah, I will *try* to find myself on here again more frequent. All I request is some engagement - talk about something that's worth talking about! I love to hear what is going on in people's heads and sharing what is going on in mine... spurring one another on! Well keep the fight y'all... two more weeks and I'll be finished my junior year.  Indebted to His service as always,
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| "Ya never know what ya got 'til it's gone..." So I kow I've been gone for a while... I have been enjoying the company of family here on the break and have only thrown together some rather jumbled thoughts on facebook here and there.. I hope to return to some coherent posts here soon enough. Well, another wonderful time with family comes to a close. Not that I don't have family here still, but Laura and my nephews and nieces started the journey back to Nebraska. I had a wonderful time with them all. Sister chats, nephew tackles, niece goofing, and baby cuddling... until next time though, it's over. sad. I hope to have some pics up soon, and some thoughts as my mind begins to look now towards the Spring semester start up - which starts with missions conference the 19th-21st. Classes for the Spring include:
- Proverbs, Ecclesiastes, Song of Solomon - Professor Les Hicks
- Greek Grammar II - Professor Les Hicks
- Introduction to Christian Thought - Dr. Steve Nichols
- Cultural Development - Ide/Sidebothom/Spanjer Another light semester of 12 credits... I am hoping to start at the crisis pregnancy center in Reading soon with the rest of my time and also take some clep tests for some of my gen-ed classes. And what has God been teaching me - a lot about patience and trust... which will probably be along with the next posts set of pictures. Indebted to His service and seeking His path to do it,
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| This week has been an interesting one for me - a mixed bag of good and bad, encouragement and discouragement, smiles and tears... you get the idea. I keep coming back to that passage that I mentioned in my last post however, when Jesus says to Peter, "what is that to you?"
Kind of a side conversation yesterday that my family bounced around about was the concept that one of the greatest hindrances to being able to give our all to Christ is our need to compare with others. We can only give what is reasonable and still have nice stuff, we can only serve when it doesn't encroach on our stable job...
We fail (myself included for sure) to remember God is living and active in every moment of our lives.
That principle of being reminded of God's nearness has been ground into me over and over this week from so many people, and in my studies, and everywhere!
I think of my life passage - Philippians 4... 6 & 7 are my key verses, but I have come to often include 5: "let your graciousness be known to everyone - the Lord is near" (loosely quoted).
There's a book I've been told to read lately that is on the top of my list to get a hold of once the semester is out, it's called "When people are big and God is small."
Even in the title I am struck by the reality of this issue among so many Christians. Because of the persona foisted on us by the culture and people around us, instead of being wrecklessly abandoned to God we are merely mediocre wanderers of the way.
Of this accusation I am guilty most...
it's so easy and so subtle a decent into the valleys of the aimless wanderer. Even when I know where I should be headed and what I should be pursuing, I somehow still am found time and again being the loser in the valley who gave up all hope of getting back on track and has become complacent with my poor state.
I was reading in Psalm 119 this morning however, and I was challenged to this end - His Word guides me and if there is nothing else that is straight - it will forever remain a constant light to my life. I can be in the most miserable moments of apathy, but I cannot allow myself to be apathetic towards God. If that lifeline remains in tact, there is always a new day, and new chance for restoration
His mercies are new every morning. And if that doesn't cause us to feel blessed and motivate us to dust ourselves off and get back up... I don't know what will. I will readily admit I am not a good soldier in the battle here, but I am priveledged to serve under a perfect commander - who knows my weaknesses and is shown strong despite them. Praise God. | | |
| The question is, why does Michelle keep updating this thing when the age of xanga has seemingly passed?
Mostly, it's my place to vent. I've said many times before and I'll say again - it's very theraputic to be able to have a place where (whether heard or not) you can articulate the things that the Lord is teaching you.
Someday I hope I can make a special book that I can pull out various posts that have been an expression of great learning and changing times in my life.
I don't know, it has been different than a journal (which for me is more of a prayer written out usually). And I have grown to enjoy reading them when God brings me to a quiet place and I have a moment to reflect on His goodness and glory...
So this semester has been an entirely new challenge for me. I am still runnin' off of raw passion from the summer. I keep expecting that I will get over it and become complacent. The opposite however has been the case. I am consumed with the reality that there is a battle that I can't sit on the sidelines anymore. I am humbled at the opportunity of equipping that so many events in my life have been - for a time such as this. Between ministry involvement, family upbringing, situations with friends, missions opportunities, college and so much more... I see how the puzzle pieces are coming together and will continue all the days of my life to restore me to His image and in the process that I will be a tool in His hands for the purpose of His glory.
What is there on earth that is better than such a calling? No, the divine plan for His people is an incredible, humbling, wonderful journey... of which I would not trade the world.
For what does it profit, if a man gains the whole world but forfeits his soul. He who saves his life will lose it, but he who loses his life for my sake and the gospel will save it...
Well, my family returns from Scotland today... two weeks of them being gone, I am anxious to hear what God has done in their lives and through them. I am blessed to have a family so involved in ministry. Though none of us are by vocation ministers except Tim, the heart of service has been planted deep into the passion of all of us... I am excited to see what the Lord will do in years to come.
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